The Great Explorer

I found a new way to discover the city you live in.

Some may choose to go for a walk and see where the wind will take them. Others may prefer to buy a travel book and pretend they are a tourist in their own city. I on the other hand, buy a death trap of a car off my brother and get stranded in a random suburb nowhere near my house!

So here I am, leaving the city area during peak hour. I've just managed to make it to the middle lane of a 5 lane motorway and the traffic is managing to do 80km per/hour. 'Brilliant' I think, 'I'll make it home in plenty of time for the 'State of Origin'... PFFT!

This is the moment when all these funny lights start flashing on my fully lowered, fully sick Commodore bro'.

My car has conked out.

I'm frantically reaching for the hazard lights button.

I'm peering in my rearview mirror to make sure the car behind me isn't going to continue to drive straight over me, (when I say fully lowered, I mean fully lowered... bro')

When I come to a stop, I try to restart the car.... nothing.

*insert blasphemy here*

*and here*

Cars are swerving past me, the owners with their hands pressed firmly on their car horns and anger in their eyes. Like I WANT to be sitting in the middle of a 5 lane motorway with cars whizzing past me and the threat of someone running straight up my ass! Fuckers!

Eventually the lovely RTA men arrived to tow me off the motorway free of charge, *shout out to the nice RTA men!*, and dumped me in a side street somewhere in the Crows Nest area. Now, I knew it was an electrical problem with the car and I just had to wait it out and it would start again. So... I went for a stroll.

I found oodles of nice restaurants and great smelling takeout places that I would love to go back to. But the highlight of my night was when I found a Japanese restaurant boasting happy hour and a live Sumo wrestling broadcast!!!! Helloooooooo Kushiyaki! I dunno what you are but for $6.00 I can eat you, drink beer AND watch fat men in nappies do that funny dance. Money well spent i say!

I might not get my car fixed just yet... who knows where I'll end up stranded next week.

what you say and what you do are two entirely different things!

so last you heard, i was happy with a cute cute cute boy who was treating me well. how quickly things can change FOR NO F#CKING REASON!!!

ok, maybe not NO reason. there were a couple of things that got in the way. too many people involved for one thing. they were all putting in their two cents and putting pressure on the relationship. Steve wasn't really ready to be in a relationship, he tried, but his head kept getting in the way and i got tired of 'being careful' and always worrying about if he was ok.

it was like this:

(steve) "come over... don't go... i want to meet your mum... yeh, she's my girlfriend"

(steve's thoughts) sh*t, this looks like a relationship, omg it IS a relationship.... but i didn't want to be in a relationship *scratches bald head*... calm down man just tell her that and she'll be cool...

(steve) "i'm not really sure what i want. i like you, i care about you. but i don't think i'm ready to be a boyfriend"

(nat) "ok. it's only a label. i'm fine with how we are as long as i know whats going on. you don't have to meet my mum yanno. how bout we just leave it for now and i don't call you my boyfriend"

(steve) "yeh cool. but i'll meet your mum. i want to. and in situations like that you CAN call me your boyfriend... where are you going?? please stay."

(Johnny *the room-mate*) "dude, she's your girlfriend. you spend nearly every night together... how's your girlfriend?... did you tell her mum about your girlfriend?... your being disrespectful by not calling her your girlfriend.

(steve's thoughts) sh*t but i don't want to get hurt. if i don't get in a relationship i won't get hurt. easy... don't get in a relationship. cool... sorted. whoa, that was close *wipes sweat of bald brow*... gee, i miss nat. i might call her and ask her to come over and stay for the weekend.. and perhaps the week as well. and we'll go out, and hold hands, and i'll make her dinner and she can tell me about all the things that are important to her.. and i want her to meet all my friends.. oh and i should ask her to come to that wedding thats 3 months away with me cos yanno, she'll still be around. and if a guy hits on her at arq again like last week, i'll just kiss her in front of him so he knows she's mine. then i'll take her home and hold her the entire night while we sleep. sounds good! but don't worry self... this isn't a relationship so you won't get hurt... oh but sh*t....

so i did the hardest thing possible and made his mind up for him. i couldn't even look at him when i was breaking it off. had to look at the floor. and when i looked up and saw how gorgeous and sweet he is and that he had tears in his eyes i couldn't breath. but all he could say in response was "i told you i didn't want a relationship"... well, that's true, i'll give him that.