unfamiliar territory

there is nothing quite so unnerving, yet simultaniously exhilarating, than unfamiliar territory.
the whole 'did-that-just-happen?'... 'how-the-f#!*-do-i-respond-to-that??'-ness of it all.

i find myself thinking that a lot lately... like for example when Ann decided to resurrect her blog after a year of silence... not even the sound of a lonely cricket - that was weird!
or when i was able to pull on a pair of size 12 jeans - what tha?
but the biggest head scratching, double take-ing moments are due to my new kinda-but-we're-not-callin-it relationship.

let me just tell you about him.
gorgeous!!!!!
drop dead i-wanna-do-things-to-you-playboy-would-censor sexy!!!!!

he has a shaved head, eyebrow piercing (that suits him and he doesn't look like a thug) light, light, light blue eyes with a darker blue rim around them, prison break-esqu chilsled jaw type. a little bit taller than me, broad shoulders, i-lift-heavy-things-for-a-living arms, got the V shaped torso thing happening with a toned chest/stomach and an ass like a 12 yr old boy.
this guy can make you pant.

but the best thing about him is he is a nice blend of aussie bloke 'where's mah six pack the footy's bout to start' and private school mumma's boy... meaning he has manners and knows to respect a woman and when to apologise. and he reads the newspaper... *impressed face*

sorry, i got a little side tracked. *wipes drool* as i was saying. nothing like those 'what tha?' moments... and the things i say (or don't say) to fuck them up...

i'm cruising along in this 'it's not really a relationship lets just see where it goes' thing and i get moments like this;

(me) "make sure i'm gone by 9:30am tomorrow i have to go to easter lunch"
(him) "so, do i get to come and meet the family?"
*pause while i choke on my beer*...
my response??? "well i have to tell them you exist first"... *ooops*

and..
(him) "this is the point where it goes from just being sex to something else"
(me.. in my head) *omg.. did he just say? what do i say to that? i kinda like it... quick, say something that won't freak him out... say something that isn't lame.. say something that means you agree... say something*
too late...
(him) i mean *nervous laugh* yanno... (at this point he says something non-commital that ruins the whole moment but i won't put it in cos it will give you too much of a visual)
(me) "are you ok with that?"
(him) "yeah, are you?"
(me) "yeah" (trust me though, at this point i don't know if he still means what he had originally said or if we're talkin about the non-commital visual inducing comment... just trust me, i fucked it up)

but my favourite... 'this doesn't happen to me' moment took place the other night. and i didn't fuck it up :)
i've had many bad relationships with guys who don't give a shit and treat me bad. but the other night i came home (by home i mean the boys house) at 10pm from rockclimbing where my boy was waiting up for me. it went like this;

(me) *knock knock*
(him) *opens door and gives me a kiss* hi baby, have you eaten? i could make you something.
(me *thinking*) its 10pm... and you've worked all day... and you're a boy... boys don't cook for me... they want me to do things for them... weeeird.
(me *saying*) no its ok, i grabbed something on my way home. thanks.
*i go to the bathroom, he sits back on the chair in front of the playstation, i come out from the bathroom and sit on the lounge*
(him) *still playing the playstation* how was your day?
(me *thinking*) he spoke... but the playstations on.. what did he say?.. he was asking how my day was... hmmm... interesting.
(me *sayin*) it was really weird actually.

it was at this point i freaked out! he reached over to the playstation... and put it on pause.
*waits for your massive reaction* PAUSE PEOPLE... play stations have a gravitational pull with boys. not just boys but men. anything male in it's radius is sucked in and becomes a grunting non-comprehending, deaf to a female voice shell of a man/boy... and he turned it off! but not only that. he stood up, walked over to the lounge, sat down and gave me his undivided attention.

i was shocked. i mean, i've heard about this. good guys and all. but i've never actually seen it outside of a movie. i gave him a very brief rundown of what was weird. made it concise and boy friendly.

**********This post was unfinished in draft. I've decided to go ahead and post it so you can see what was going on a month or so ago and what state i was in etc etc. I'll catch you up soon************

to finish it off though... the point of it was i was pleasently surprised by this guy. i was not expecting too much and didn't quite know how to react to moving forward and being treated well. and the biggest point guys.... it doesn't take much to please a girl. press pause on the play station. it won't take long, she'll make whatever she has to say quick as a thank you for your actions... and, you'll most likely get laid as an added bonus ;)